Long Time No Words

I haven't posted on here in foreeeever!! I feel so bad about that. Mostly to myself. I really wanted to be commited to this and keep posting every day, but it's been way too long I've just been busy, I guess. Maybe lazy. Maybe both. I'm probably just slacking off and don't want to admit to myself how lazy I really am so I make up that I'm really just very busy. Anyhow, moving on.

I cannot wait to graduate from highschool. I cannot wait to graduate, period. Highschool, College, all of it. I just want it to be done. I like learning on my own time. I hate time restraints and requirements and grades and the whole thing. I'd rather just go to the library, pick up a book, and learn about things I really want to know. If I really wanted to know about mathmatical theorems and equations, which I really don't, I would go find out about them on my own.

Continuing on from that, alot of people my age see college as a freeing experience. It's a way to get away from parents, and your hometown, and occaisonally a chance to find out who you are on your own. In many ways it is. But for someone who has already began her higher learning education, I know the many new difficulties that go along with fending for yourself. College professors are much less willing to help you along and find, or hand, you shortcuts to better grades. They expect to hand you a syllabus on day one and they expect it to be complete by the end of class. If you can't handle their class or their curriculum, they will flat out tell you to get out. That's the end of it. No questions asked. If you can't cut it, they cut you off. The harsh reality is that being on your own and college is really being on your own at college. There is no Mommy and Daddy to catch you when you fall. You either learn to catch yourself, or fall flat on your face.